Not too sure why, but things just feel a little different this year. It's the first time I have not set any New Year Resolutions. Probably why I'm still feeling a lil directionless as of now.. Guess I should get down to it soon.
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5 minutes before auction closed : sends Celga my increased bid.
Auction closes, with no apparent input of my bid. 5 minutes after auction closes, I get an email saying, "sorry, the auction has ended ; _ ;" Oh well, guess I need to bid 10 to 15 minutes in advance next time. Updates: Really got quite upset with Celga. Wanted to bid for the dress below for Pyon, sent in my bid half a day in advance, and they sent me a receipt to acknowledge receiving payment, together with a message that says: "Hello, I added the item for you. Thank you and good luck! ^^ Risa" Yet, the bid wasnt placed =( Sadness... Well, it's 2.22am and I can't sleep. I know I'm gonna regret this tomorrow.
Ended up googling for top anime instead. I used to be such a hardcore otaku, till I graduated from university and started working. It was then, that my focus shifted entirely to BJDs (Ball-jointed dolls). And then I knew him. Let's just call him Kuma-chan here. I don't think I'd like to go about disclosing names on a public blog. Anyway, since knowing Kuma-chan, we've indulged ourselves in many hobbies. From BJDs to fishing to gaming, and finally, back to anime. That was after we both got our Samsung Galaxy Note 3. The screen is larger than an S4 and the "Group Play" function is now one of the most useful apps I use on my phone while we are both relaxing at Sufi's. One person downloads and loads the anime through the app, and taa daa, you can share the video with your friend on his/her own phone. And so that's what we have been doing. Since getting Note 3, I've watch Accel world, Elfen Lied, Kuroko no Basket, Shingeki no Kyojin, Tengen Toppa Gurran Lagann (that's seriously a mouthful), Another, Machine Doll, Madoka Magica and Kurokami. I probably missed some titles but well, that would just mean they were insignificant to me. Anyway here's my top few before I doze off. (I'm finally feeling it... yay. ) In no order of preference... 1. Claymore 2. Great Teacher Onizuka 3. Nana (Old time favourite. Love the songs too) 4. Skipbeat! (alright, I was influenced to put this down because of the manga) 5. Kuroko no Basket 6. Sword Art Online 7. Kill la Kill 8. Galilei Donna Can't think of 9. and 10. You go figure. :D Well, I was never really good at keeping a diary. Think the last I did was back in Primary School. Back then, our English teacher talked about Anne Frank's diary, which she named Kitty, and I thought I ought to name mine too. After deliberating for an entire night, I decided to name it after one of my favourite local dishes, Rojak. I thought it was apt, considering the mass of unrelated ramblings that was in it. Then, I stopped writing in Secondary school and started using blogger. That lasted 10 years before it got so long and messy i got tired of it.
I'm not too sure why I'm back here again actually. But well, I guess I needed an outlet of some sort. 2014. On the first day of this new year, daddy dropped the bomb. "Eh girl, when are you going to give papa a grandchild to hug ah? xxx Jiejie has her third child already leh." Err ok? Seems like the priorities aren't quite right here? I don't even have a boyfriend? Then it dawned on me that i'm probably going through that infamous quarter-life crisis. I guess it's a "daddy thing". They jump the gun without even thinking whether their daughter is attached or not. A friend commented on facebook, "You know you don't need to get married to have a kid right..." Anyway, mom came in later on and had a long chat with me. I guess I'm pretty messed up emotionally, but that story, I'll save for another day. I tend to avoid weddings. Honestly speaking, they make me feel bad and the mess of emotions well up within me and I feel really small and inferior. But then came a wedding invite I could not refuse. A close friend requested that I be her bridesmaid and to top it off, her emcee for the evening. I'm excited, truly. I was really honoured that she'd ask me. A great friend whom I knew in Primary school; we diverted paths after PSLE and fate got us meeting again in the same course in university. After graduating, we all became busy with work and the chances to meet dwindled. But it was great to know that the warm feeling and easy chit chat seemed all too natural whenever we met. I guess that's what good friendship means. Nonetheless, as excited as I was about my good friend's wedding, I felt equally empty within. At 24, I told myself, hell, what's the big deal about getting married and stuff? As long as we love each other, everything is fine right? But now at 27, turning 28 this year, it doesn't really feel fine at all. I want to build a home with the one I love, wake up in the morning and make breakfast for him, come home and end the day with a movie or a few episodes of anime or something. And maybe eventually, have a kid or two to headache over together. But ultimately, our stubborness made it impossible. It wasn't what he wanted anyway. Anyway it's 12am. Day 1 is over. I ought to be sleeping soon. Tomorrow is the first day of school. Well, that marks the end of my one month retreat. I know I'll end up tossing and turning in bed for a couple of hours. It always happens before school starts. Good night, world. |
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